Playing The Hand Life Gave You

Chapter 3

Things were going great, I was out scouting locations for a place to start my very own restaurant when I met him.

 "Are you following me." He asked.

 "Am I following you, why would I do that?"

 "To get my number, to ask me out, to find out my name, it's Zane by the way Zane Ryan."

 "Well Zane I'm very flattered with this new approach but I don't think so."

 "Give me one good reason beautiful we shouldn't go out get to know each other and live happily ever after together."

 "I have a child and no time to date." "I love kids, meet me at the Bowling Alley tomorrow night 8 o'clock." "Don't watch me walk away." "I'm gonna keep watching til you say yes and give me your name beautiful." "Alright, it's Hunter tomorrow at 8."

 Zane was very handsome, twenty, just moved to town hilarious.

 Interesting and Interested in me and my life and hearing about Haven but didn't pressure me for answers about her father.

 And had me turned on for the first time since I got pregnant.  I was never having sex again after getting pregnant but being around Zane sex was definitely on my mind.

 But not just sex, he was so good with Haven and that made me fall in love with him.

 Everything was falling into place, Haven still hadn't asked about Daddy but there was this guy who couldn't have been a better father if he was her real Dad.

 Then some how my secret hit the tabloids and Zane's roommate couldn't wait to tell him who his girlfriend was.  

 They made it seem like I got pregnant on purpos and blackmailed Kelly into paying me to keep my mouth shut.

 They had photos of me and Haven and even questioned my age.

"Look bruh I know this dude is your brother, but this story is bogus as hell.I know Hunter and she wouldn't do this to Haven." "I'm just saying don't trust this chick my brother did and could have went to jail behind it, now he's missed what three years of his daughter's life."

After the story ran I don't know why but I expected to hear from Kelly, Zane was true to form believed my every word and took me out for a romantic dinner to get my mind off the lies.

"What are we toasting." "The truth behind the lies. The good behind the bad. The future. Us." "Cheers."

"Hunter I know you've only known me for a year but I can't imagine life with out you or Haven in it every day." "Zane what are you trying to say."

"Marry me Hunter, Be my wife."

Playing The Hand Life Gave You

Chapter 2

 I spent the rest of my pregnancy with my best friend since pre school, Lana Walls.

Lana dropped everything to move in with me and promised to stay as long as I needed her there.  I think she was just ready to leave the boarding schools alone too, we spent our whole lives in all girl schools tucked away from any one we knew learning to be socialites. 

 She talked me through my emotional outburst about the baby, Kelly, my parents, getting fat.  Everything seemed to make me cry.

But Lana kept me focused and motivated.

 I was happy to have my bestfriend there with me.  I don't know how I would have managed alone.

But just when you start leaning to hard on some one God has a way of showing you that you really can only count on yourself.

 Lana had to fly out of town to convince her parents she was still worthy of her weekly allowance when I went into labor two months early.

 I had to get myself to the hospital, get my self checked in.

Go through all the scary test by myself. They wanted to stop the labor but my baby girl was having none of that.

 "Let me see her." "One moment Ms. Joy, she's a little small but everything looks good."

 "She's gonna be here for a little while but her heart and lungs are strong you have a name yet."

 "Haven Hoyt-Joy." My baby girl was only 2lbs 15oz. and was in the hospital for two weeks before I finally got to bring her home.

 She was gaining weight quickly, eating good, sleeping through the night. She was the best baby.

 But she wasn't staying a baby long and her father was missing out on so much.

Two years after Haven was born I ran into Kelly for the first time since the restaurant. "Kelly I don't want to fight with you, or try to convince you to be in our lives.  I'm nineteen now and still to this day love you."

I don't regret my decision and hope you don't ever live to regret yours. Just look at her Kelly, Isn't she beautiful."

"She is beautiful, so much time has went by Hunter how do I, I can't it's best you keep doing what you doing. She is beautiful, just like her mother."

Kelly may not realized what he was missing out on but I cherished every moment I had with Haven.

She was walking and talking and learning so much so quickly.

I was dreading the day she would ask about her father. I hadn't said a word good bad or indifferent and always prayed Kelly would ring the bell before she asked.

Until then I just did the best I could with the cards I had and made sure this little nut was happy.

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Chapter 1 

                    

I was scared and nervous about telling Kelly.

All kind of thoughts ran through my mind.

What if he didn't want the baby?  What would I do then?

I pray for strength to deal with what ever Kelly's reaction would be.

  I ask for a sign to show me what to do.  

As if out of no where kids that I had never seen in the neighborhood surrounded me, laughing and playing.  I had my answer.

"Where is that waiter." I mumbled trying to prolong this conversation. Kelly had called as soon as he got back in town and wanted to take me to dinner to celebrate his signing a multimillion dollar three record deal.

"Girl if you don't tell me what's wrong with you so we can enjoy this evening...." "I'm pregnant!" "Wow, really I tell you about the money and all of sudden you pregnant. You Hoes all the same."

"I've been trying to tell you for a couple of weeks, way before the money you ass.  I've never needed a penny from you, I thought you knew me better than that." "And I thought you were on the pill, It's cool for the media to try and figure out if I'm fucking a 16 year old you wanna give them all the evidence to label me a sex offender and ruin my career."

"I didn't make this baby alone but I'm perfectly fine raising it alone."

"Fuck you and your career." I walked away, I wanted to hit him who the fuck he think he is calling me out my name but I just walked away and didn't look back.